Question:
Hi!...today hasnt been a very good day emotionally.
Sometimes, I'm doing great, have everything under control, use all the techniques for healing/letting go that I've learnt, then something triggers me, and off I go.
Today, I heard a song and I burst into tears, I related it to someone whom I'm trying to let go of but it hurt so much. I obviously needed the cleansing, so crying was the right thing to do but I felt I wouldnt stop crying, so I just let myself do what I needed to do.
I've been using my rose quartz & clear quartz for love and release of negatitivity, and also a grounding stone, whichever catches my eye. At the moment I've got an aventurine tucked inside my bra, close to my heart (for emotional healing).
Do you think I'm overdoing it? when I say I'm using them, I don't mean I carry them around with me all the time. I may have one or two in my pocket, or I will use more if I'm laying down resting, trying to re-focus my thoughts and mediate.
Twice I've asked for spiritual intervention but I havent really felt it. I guess it must be there because I did calm down, but I've got the most awful headache and pressure on my neck and spine (had that for quite a while now). I'm usually very much aware of my environment, birds/animals/insects, but even the crows, butterflys and spiders that I've seen many of over recent weeks/months seem to have disappeared. I'm looking but I'm not seeing anything (as yet!) to replace these.
Is this all part of the process I'm going through, re-learning, opening myself up emotionally and spiritually, acting on instinct?? I've been told that I'm "gifted", I'm a "healer". I've also been told I'm an "old soul", perhaps this side is becoming more aware, more developed and I don't know what to do with it???
Sometimes, my brain just blanks out, I cannot think of anything anymore. I definitely need the root & sacrel chakra stones (hence my red/oranges), and why I'm drawn to certain stones not just the colour, so I'm learning to trust my instinct and not be swayed (which isn't easy for me because I tend to doubt myself quite a lot, even though, deep down, I know I'm doing the right thing for me). I need the deep rooted love and acceptance of myself and other people.
But I'm also being pulled towards the clear & white 7th chakra stones, for spiritual development and open-ness, at the moment it's clear quartz, selenite and occasionally my rainbow moonstone.
My dreams are very vivid (usually) and I can have 3-4 different dreams in one night, which I attempt to remember and figure out. My head is definitely doing something. I'm being drawn but I'm not sure why or what yet.
Maybe it's all too much for me? I feel quite drained (but that's normal as I'm recovering from ME).
Thanks for listening, I'm just off-loading after my little (or big) teary session this afternoon. I dont have anyone (apart from here online) that I can explain all of this too, they'd think I was nuts!
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Naaah! I think you know what you're doing is right for you, and it's good that you're going with your instinct. There are times when I wish I could sleep in my crystal room just so that I could absorb all those lovely energies all together. I've been known to take the odd nap there though . . . Stick with your gut feeling on what you need to do. It may feel very messy now, but there'll come a day when you'll look back and realise how much you've grown in experience from this.
So glad that you feel comfortable enough to share here. We're happy to listen and provide support. Whilst our journeys are different, they share similar chords of high and low notes. Sympathy with cups of tea and a nice plate of biccies are sincerely offered by friends. But empathy and understanding require a little of having experienced the chanson and felt the same resonance.
Take good care of yourself [sm=hug.gif]
Cub
Hi Cub,
Thanks for your response!
I slept with some crystals last night, I had two under my pillow (selenite & angelite) and one Obsidian (is that how you spell it?), but as usual, if I have a crystal in the bed with me, at some point it seems to "jump" out, and I hear an almighty thud as it hits the floor. Which is surprising really as my stones aren't exactly big or heavy and my floor is carpeted.
Today I'm achey, tired and extremely cold. My head is empty, I'm trying to think but I'm not getting anywhere. I guess that's negative energy leaving my body and my mind taking some "time-out" to rest and re-coup? That's what I think it is anyway.
Very strange dreams ranging from being in the dark underground, sensing danger, then going into another level but still anxious to being on an upper level waiting for a bus (number 36), I missed one but I knew another would be along in a minute.
Sometimes I can have over 3,4,5 dreams in a night. I think I know what's happening. Part of my unconsious is being awakened as I'm ready to start dealing with things. I'm also integrating the male/female aspects of myself (lots of left & right in dreams), and masculine strenghts revealing themselves though my feminine side is still extremely strong.
Anyway, just me waffling again! I feel I'm in limbo, I've finished or almost finished with one phase and I'm waiting for the next to happen but I'm not sure what as yet. My totem animals/guides seem to have gone too, I'm really out on a limb here!
Maybe that's why my mind is getting the rest it needs, for the next part of my journey. I'm about to "hit" something new, and I'm not sure I'm going to be able to cope with it, although I know, I cannot stop it!
This sure is some journey I'm on, it's that or I'm going completely ga-ga! [sm=dance.gif]
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Hiya Whiteswan,
Hope you're sleeping a bit better. As for the crystals jumping out of bed - that's their way of saying 'you've had enough, missy'. If you've dedicated them to 'the greatest good of all, working in light and love' or something similar, then they will take you as far as you need to go energy wise at that moment. They'll make it clear when they're done.
It's funny how crystals decide where they need to go. Once when giving a treatment, I laid the stones I'd chosen for the sacral chakra on the person. It was a complicated geometric design I'd settled on, with carnelians, citrines, red japsers and small quartz points. However, the stones wanted to go all in a heap towards one kidney. I tried moving them back a couple of times, but they insisted that they knew best. The client commented at the end that it had hit the spot. How could I argue with the stones? :D
Happy crystal cuddling tonight!
Cub
Hi Cub,
Yes, I'm sleeping a little better, my crystals stayed in bed with me last night. I awoke a few times and was feeling around to see if they were still there.
Normally they are quite warmish but they were quite cool this morning. Dont know if that means anything. Also I'm absolutely freezing, I know the temperature has dropped but I feel so cold all the time. Is this because I'm still releasing negative energy?
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Hi Whiteswan, You are doing just fine, trust yourself and your instincts.
Being cold can be a sign of emotional healing, so it's nothing to worry about, I used to get that a lot in the past. To heat yourself up, visualise roots extending from the bottom of your feet deep into the core of Mother Earth, then visualise the energy from the core of Mother Earth entering your feet and making its way up into your body. This will heat you up as the core of Mother Earth is very very hot.
I do this when I'm cold and you will warm up!
Take one day at a time and remember that it is a process, allow the healing to take place and know that you are on the correct path.
The number 36 from the Angel numbers book says: The ascended masters want to help you with your material life, especially by providing you with support for your life mission and your loved ones. The ascended masters ask that you keep your mind focused on Spirit and not to unduly focus on the material world.
Hope you can relate to the above.
Love and light
Rosi X
Sometimes, I'm doing great, have everything under control, use all the techniques for healing/letting go that I've learnt, then something triggers me, and off I go.
Today, I heard a song and I burst into tears, I related it to someone whom I'm trying to let go of but it hurt so much. I obviously needed the cleansing, so crying was the right thing to do but I felt I wouldnt stop crying, so I just let myself do what I needed to do.
I've been using my rose quartz & clear quartz for love and release of negatitivity, and also a grounding stone, whichever catches my eye. At the moment I've got an aventurine tucked inside my bra, close to my heart (for emotional healing).
Do you think I'm overdoing it? when I say I'm using them, I don't mean I carry them around with me all the time. I may have one or two in my pocket, or I will use more if I'm laying down resting, trying to re-focus my thoughts and mediate.
Twice I've asked for spiritual intervention but I havent really felt it. I guess it must be there because I did calm down, but I've got the most awful headache and pressure on my neck and spine (had that for quite a while now). I'm usually very much aware of my environment, birds/animals/insects, but even the crows, butterflys and spiders that I've seen many of over recent weeks/months seem to have disappeared. I'm looking but I'm not seeing anything (as yet!) to replace these.
Is this all part of the process I'm going through, re-learning, opening myself up emotionally and spiritually, acting on instinct?? I've been told that I'm "gifted", I'm a "healer". I've also been told I'm an "old soul", perhaps this side is becoming more aware, more developed and I don't know what to do with it???
Sometimes, my brain just blanks out, I cannot think of anything anymore. I definitely need the root & sacrel chakra stones (hence my red/oranges), and why I'm drawn to certain stones not just the colour, so I'm learning to trust my instinct and not be swayed (which isn't easy for me because I tend to doubt myself quite a lot, even though, deep down, I know I'm doing the right thing for me). I need the deep rooted love and acceptance of myself and other people.
But I'm also being pulled towards the clear & white 7th chakra stones, for spiritual development and open-ness, at the moment it's clear quartz, selenite and occasionally my rainbow moonstone.
My dreams are very vivid (usually) and I can have 3-4 different dreams in one night, which I attempt to remember and figure out. My head is definitely doing something. I'm being drawn but I'm not sure why or what yet.
Maybe it's all too much for me? I feel quite drained (but that's normal as I'm recovering from ME).
Thanks for listening, I'm just off-loading after my little (or big) teary session this afternoon. I dont have anyone (apart from here online) that I can explain all of this too, they'd think I was nuts!
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Answers:
Naaah! I think you know what you're doing is right for you, and it's good that you're going with your instinct. There are times when I wish I could sleep in my crystal room just so that I could absorb all those lovely energies all together. I've been known to take the odd nap there though . . . Stick with your gut feeling on what you need to do. It may feel very messy now, but there'll come a day when you'll look back and realise how much you've grown in experience from this.
So glad that you feel comfortable enough to share here. We're happy to listen and provide support. Whilst our journeys are different, they share similar chords of high and low notes. Sympathy with cups of tea and a nice plate of biccies are sincerely offered by friends. But empathy and understanding require a little of having experienced the chanson and felt the same resonance.
Take good care of yourself [sm=hug.gif]
Cub
Answers:
Hi Cub,
Thanks for your response!
I slept with some crystals last night, I had two under my pillow (selenite & angelite) and one Obsidian (is that how you spell it?), but as usual, if I have a crystal in the bed with me, at some point it seems to "jump" out, and I hear an almighty thud as it hits the floor. Which is surprising really as my stones aren't exactly big or heavy and my floor is carpeted.
Today I'm achey, tired and extremely cold. My head is empty, I'm trying to think but I'm not getting anywhere. I guess that's negative energy leaving my body and my mind taking some "time-out" to rest and re-coup? That's what I think it is anyway.
Very strange dreams ranging from being in the dark underground, sensing danger, then going into another level but still anxious to being on an upper level waiting for a bus (number 36), I missed one but I knew another would be along in a minute.
Sometimes I can have over 3,4,5 dreams in a night. I think I know what's happening. Part of my unconsious is being awakened as I'm ready to start dealing with things. I'm also integrating the male/female aspects of myself (lots of left & right in dreams), and masculine strenghts revealing themselves though my feminine side is still extremely strong.
Anyway, just me waffling again! I feel I'm in limbo, I've finished or almost finished with one phase and I'm waiting for the next to happen but I'm not sure what as yet. My totem animals/guides seem to have gone too, I'm really out on a limb here!
Maybe that's why my mind is getting the rest it needs, for the next part of my journey. I'm about to "hit" something new, and I'm not sure I'm going to be able to cope with it, although I know, I cannot stop it!
This sure is some journey I'm on, it's that or I'm going completely ga-ga! [sm=dance.gif]
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Answers:
Hiya Whiteswan,
Hope you're sleeping a bit better. As for the crystals jumping out of bed - that's their way of saying 'you've had enough, missy'. If you've dedicated them to 'the greatest good of all, working in light and love' or something similar, then they will take you as far as you need to go energy wise at that moment. They'll make it clear when they're done.
It's funny how crystals decide where they need to go. Once when giving a treatment, I laid the stones I'd chosen for the sacral chakra on the person. It was a complicated geometric design I'd settled on, with carnelians, citrines, red japsers and small quartz points. However, the stones wanted to go all in a heap towards one kidney. I tried moving them back a couple of times, but they insisted that they knew best. The client commented at the end that it had hit the spot. How could I argue with the stones? :D
Happy crystal cuddling tonight!
Cub
Answers:
Hi Cub,
Yes, I'm sleeping a little better, my crystals stayed in bed with me last night. I awoke a few times and was feeling around to see if they were still there.
Normally they are quite warmish but they were quite cool this morning. Dont know if that means anything. Also I'm absolutely freezing, I know the temperature has dropped but I feel so cold all the time. Is this because I'm still releasing negative energy?
Whiteswan [sm=hug.gif]
Answers:
Hi Whiteswan, You are doing just fine, trust yourself and your instincts.
Being cold can be a sign of emotional healing, so it's nothing to worry about, I used to get that a lot in the past. To heat yourself up, visualise roots extending from the bottom of your feet deep into the core of Mother Earth, then visualise the energy from the core of Mother Earth entering your feet and making its way up into your body. This will heat you up as the core of Mother Earth is very very hot.
I do this when I'm cold and you will warm up!
Take one day at a time and remember that it is a process, allow the healing to take place and know that you are on the correct path.
The number 36 from the Angel numbers book says: The ascended masters want to help you with your material life, especially by providing you with support for your life mission and your loved ones. The ascended masters ask that you keep your mind focused on Spirit and not to unduly focus on the material world.
Hope you can relate to the above.
Love and light
Rosi X
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